Girl Dreams Diminuendo — Monster

She is seventeen feet tall, give or take a vertebra. Her horns curl inward like a question she has forgotten how to ask. Scales the color of a dying star flash beneath a too-thin nightgown. In the dream, she is always trying to fit inside a room built for someone else—a classroom, a café, a childhood bedroom with a twin bed her tail spills off of like a wounded river.

She wakes up.

The sound lasts for miles. Birds fall silent in respect. The moon flickers. monster girl dreams diminuendo

But something is different tonight.

Her human hands. Her human teeth. Her spine still curved from years of apologizing. The alarm clock reads 4:47 AM. The radiator clicks. Somewhere a neighbor is coughing. She is seventeen feet tall, give or take a vertebra

She whispers, I’m sorry I take up so much space.

The dream always starts the same way: a sound like a cello being drawn across the ocean floor. In the dream, she is always trying to

She walks through a moonlit forest where the trees have lungs. Each step cracks the earth in a pattern that looks like a language. A river rises to meet her ankles, then her knees, and the water is warm and full of bioluminescent fish that sing her name in a key only she can hear. She opens her mouth—really opens it, hinges unhinging, jaw unhinging—and a sound comes out that is not a scream but a release. Everything she swallowed. Every tone it down , every you’re too much , every sideways glance on a subway car.

And the dream answers: No. Stay.

Her shoulder blade aches. Not with pain—with memory. A phantom weight where wings almost were. She touches the skin there, and for a second, it feels like velvet over bone. Like the dream is not finished with her yet.

So she folded herself smaller. Smaller. Until her spine curved like a bow. Until her voice became a polite, airless thing.